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Hair Diary #1

So as you may have read in my intro , I'm obsessed with my hair. Lol This morning my hair is in braids but I'm thinking I'm going to take them out. I just put them in so I could get a few days without having to wake up and do it. Yes this was pure lazyness..lol. In about a week or two I'm going to dye my hair to this garnier fructis color #69 because I want to try something new (: I am scared though because lately I've been getting random breakage -_- its so retarded and annoying the crap out of me.Then again its my own fault because I straightened my hair ..2 weeks? Or 3 weeks in a row..for some people they can do it everyday and get less damage but my hair type is EXTREMELY dry because its curly so keeping it moisturized is really hard. I'm thinking about getting getting a new deep conditioner because right now I use garniers 3 minute undo. Its..ok? It doesn't really give me any extra moisturize nor stop breakage or whatever so I think its about time I broke the bank because some products are expensive but I care about my hair a lot so I'm gonna do whatever it takes to achieve my hair growth(: Might have to baby my hair for a while but it will DEFINETLY be well worth it :D Btw while we are on the topic of hair treatments I really think I should try out that macadamia deep conditioner because EVERYONE says they like it and all the reviews I've seen have been good so I'm gonna try that out so look out for that ^.^ my hair is about, almost bra strap length so join the journey peoples (: Think that's about it thanks for checking in people! Stay tuned! + Tell me what kind of topics you liek the most if you would like to <3 bye!

Today I felt this post was necessary because me and my boyfriend had a talk :] this is to the girl/boy with or without a girlfriend,that person who thinks they aren't pretty or handsome. You may be put down by others saying otherwise but let me tell you: You are BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME. People only say things like " eww youre so ugly" "oh your hair looks horrible today" or just down right rude things to hide their own insecurities. These are called in our modern age haters. Sad part is half the things they try to convince you are wrong with you they have a problem with it themselves. THEY WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND THINK THEY ARE UGLY. THEY WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND HATE THEIR HAIR OR THEIR OWN SKIN. Never let anyone bring down your confidence. I know its hard especially if all you hear around is what's WRONG with you,never what's right. Admittedly sometimes I dont feel pretty so I put on some makeup in the morning to mask or distract from my dark circles under my eyes or whatever I'm not really liking that morning. Theres a difference between not liking something about your face THAT morning and just hating how you look in general and hating your own skin. No matter what skin tone,race,whateevr you are YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. dudes(though they wont admit it most times) feel insecure too which they shouldn't. Always rememebr this quote, I saws it on twitter last night "No matter how ugly you think you are, there's someone that believes youre the most beautiful thing on earth,and nobody can change that" Honestly I don't know whos quote that is haha but it really stuck out to me because it's true. Most days I wake up naturally I look like crapx1000 yet to my boyfriend I'm still the prettiest girl on the planet. I always think he seriously needs to get his eyes checked but although I may complain about maybe my dark circles under my eyes to my eyes not being an extravagant color or WHATEVER I still wouldnt want to be anyone else. I feel everyone should think like this because as much as that other girl or boy is pretty or handsome you will NEVER be them. You are yourself so you should feel comfortable in your own body. I know we all have those days where this seems so hard but trust me as you learn to slowly compliment how nice your eyes are or how you liek your own smile or find things about yourself you liek that may not even necessarily be physical being you won't feel as bad. No matter who is around you trying to tell you otherwise youre amazing & you should always try to remember that. It doesnt matter whether you are big or small,short or tall,husky or thin. Whatever you call yourself you are an amazing person. Let me also say that complaining about your flaws won't magically fix them. You don't liek it? DO SOMETHING about it. "I think I'm fat." Then maybe do some exercise. Let me also reitterate this. CURVES ARE SEXY. You can do some pushups, situps,or this exercise I used to do in karate..not sure what its called but you basically lay down on your back body straight legs next to each other and try to lift your legs up and down from the ground then try to hold them about an inch from the ground for like....10 seconds? It will tone your stomach..or it should? I'm not an expert so don't quote me it worked for me and Im nothing special with my body I dont exercise ALL THE TIME so if it worked for me it should work for you. Or for those people who go into the bathrooms & throw up because they want to lose weight and have convinced themselves that they are fat. Sweety,no one likes a pencil. No one wants to hug you a certain way in fear of breaking you.. Hey alot of people would kill for your figure they WAY YOU ARE. Theres a difference between skinny and anorexic. Anorexia is not good and obviously not attractive. Don't let the media fool you, men like CURVES. And if a man in yiour life is telling you to lose weight he's obviously an idiot and has issues with himself he needs to get over. Oh ansd let me bring this up right now...READING IS FINE. I like to read things that actually capture my attention. I can proudly say I'm a nerd/dork because I am confident in my intelligence. NEVER dumb yourself down for ANYONE. If a boy wants you to be stupid to go out with him hes not worth it. He's going to wish he could go out with you when he sees how confident you are and how INTELLIGENT you are. Show him you don't need him especially due to the fact he didnt realize your *pause* dare I say it AWESOMENESS to begin with! Thats goes for any gender. A smart male is just as attractive as a smart girl. At the end of the day looks only get you BUT so far. If you want to hang with the "popular" crowd who act like bimbos they arent worth your time. Like I said earlier the people who put you down are jealous. That popular girl putting you down because youre smart is jealous because she knows she doesnt even know how to spell the word idiot without referring to something. Thats how the world unfortunately works. People make fun of you because you have something they want.Im starting to ramble and this is becoming long so I'm going to end it with this : you can be chubby,skinny,big chested,flat chested it honestly doesnt matter. Personality shines through no matter what. Would you rather date someone who has the media version of perfect body whos a jerk or someone who has a little weight on them but the sweetest person youve ever met? yeah id pick the second one. And also something I didnt really go over. Too much makeup is not attractive....at the end of the day you have to take it off...when you look TOTALLY DIFFERENT with makeup on then without it thats an issue... I have tons of male cousins and none of them like a girl with a lot of makeup on and I completely understand that. Makeup was originally made to ENHANCE your NATURAL beauty not to hide it. If you look like snooki youve got too much on. Im not saying it has to be ALL natural I mean eyeshadows are nice but remember makeup has to come off at some point and you have to be confident in whats under it. Embrace that beautiful natural face. :) P.S I do random post about confidence. You don't like it don't read it. <3

My Love/Hate Relationship With Music(and a side note about friendship)

So Im sure by now you think Im just like everyone else claiming to want to be a rapper nowadays. "What do you want to be?" "Oh a rapper" "mhm..cool I guess" this is how just about all of my conversations go with all these people claiming to want to be rappers. Nowadays everyone wants to be a rapper because they see lil wayne or eminem or kanye west. They never have true reasoning. Rapping and music have always been a part of my life. I have always felt so deeply about it. Songs always gave me goosebumps when I listened to them because it was as if they were speaking to me. Know that moment youve had enough? like youre just done with everything. Well thats what got me started. I was about...10? maybe a year younger and I was tired of everyone around me. Parent issues,bullying,you name it ive been through it. Instead of becoming a violent person bent incredibly on destruction now I'm about..half of that? haha. Admittedly I'm sorta bad attitued now and sarcastic but I can honestly say music has saved my life. In the song Dead and gone by T.I. the specific lyric I can relate to is "now I take time to take time to think,before I make mistakesjust for my familys sake" because now that I have someone who cares about me I watch what I do vbecause I was so wreckless with how I reacted to issues that I could have gotten myself hurt but its changed now because I dont want my boyfriend to get hurt.When I hear all the nonsense from nowadays with the wakak flocka guy who shakes his dreads all the time it pisses me off SEVERLY.. I dont get how we went from having music to having garbage. For all you people out there who actually like nicki minaj..Youre entitled to your own opinion but I mean come on..she sucks.. Shes a bit old trying to be a barbie isnt she? You can say Im jealous or whateevr you want but I know its not true because whats there to be jealous of? That my butt is actually real? Yeah no thanks. I want to become famous not for the fame but for the simple fact I could actually bring back meaning to music. Not to say there arent good artists but there arent enough of them outweighing the losers. Jay-z,eminem,lil wayne has his moments, and drake also. Lil Wayne and drake rap too much about sex for the most part but they both have their moments where you can tell they didnt get famous for NOTHING. I want to be up there with them. I have the confidence but being that right now I honestly dont have enough money for computer equipment and other equipment my dream is a distant aspiration. I sit here to say I will make it because I love music so much I honestly can't see myself doing anything else :] When I'm angry,I write, Happy,I write. Wanting this career has also shown me who my true friends are. This one girl named Alexis told me her friend had a studio to record in , I asked her if shed hook me up and her exact words were "no youre good". Naturally it upset me because I'm someone who is very willing to help people outand was hoping shed do the same for me especially since she was supposedly my best friend but I said screw it because she wasnt worth the stress. I slowly stopped talking to her because after saying that she obviously wasnt interested in sharing because maybe she thought id take the spotlight or whatever her issue was so it was whatever and I let it go. Months later she texted me and asked what I was doing and how was I. I had been recording with a music program on my then computer trying to make beats to record over. I texted her back saying " Ive been good just nothing just focusing on music and working on building a studio how about you?"I She took a minute to text me back then said "oh word? and you didnt tell me? OIve just been doing me" Now as you can see she was upset I didnt tell her> yet when her opportunity was open I was "good" Being how I was when a kid I never trusted anyone anyway but after that I was definetly not bent on trusting her. I told her shed been acting different she got angry and asked how and we havent talked since. So for all you people guys and girls some people just arent worth a friendship with. So back to what I was saying though lol my writing comes straight from my soul. So one day I hope I can look back on this when Im famous and say I did it. 2011 was a rocky year but I've made it through all the crap then so Im going to dominate in 2012 because I know that I have what it takes. Heres MD signing off and thanks for reading, I appreciate it! Also any things you need advice on ill definetly blog about it and help you out! alright dueces people!

THE SUPERBOWL!

So I know I'm basically two days late. Sorry about that but on Twitter & all over the internet America seems to have a very different opinion about Madonnas performance. Some people say they hated it while others LOVED IT. To be honest although I'm not a huge Madonna fan I still think she could have done better. I mean the performance was..boring. My mother put the tv on mute and I left the room to talk to my boyfriend on the phone. Again although I'm not a fan of hers I felt it could have been way better then some dude in a skirt jumping up and down on a tightrope.HOWEVER IN BETTER NEWS : THE GIANTS WON! I'm a huge Giants fans(along with the cowboys) and I knew my team wouldn't let me down. I was happy once the game started and the giants were up by 9 points to zip. Honestly the Pats held it down to say the least but I guess their best wasn't good enough to beat the Giants. And what does this mean? It means all those Patriots fans who talked so much pregame crap are now hiding under their desks at work and avoiding Giants fans. Lol I feel that their team losing enough and after watching the game I don't feel its necessary to rub it in because there are so many people doing it for me. Better luck next time guys!

Random giddy morning?

I woke up this morning at five this morning for no reason .. ugh. but im so happy that today pretty little liars is up on the internet so me and my boyfriend shalt watch it <3 :) Such a sweetheart bringing me breakfast :D so um..yeah first blog post not that interesting but hey.. lol. Keep returning for more because all I will do is post about hair and my music career I am aspiring to along with living life with my snookiebear :) ( yes we have lame pet names SO WHAT)